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While in the cloud of depression that I’ve been lingering in, there have been a few glorious times that I see how beautiful my life is. It’s those moments that keep me going; they give me faith to just keep pushing out of this fog until I can see these beautiful moments everyday.
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The other night we were getting ready for dinner. Apollo was watching Dinosaur Train when one of his favorite songs came on that features a lot of stomping (something that he loves to do). Apollo took my hand and brought me over to the TV to dance (or stomp) with him. Being in my usual funk, this is the last thing that I wanted to do, but I did it for my baby boy. Soon, Ella and Steve came over and the 4 of us were all stomping and singing and just being silly. Looking around at my family it brought tears to my eyes. I love these people, I am so thankful to have them in my life.
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It was also at this very moment that I got really excited about the new baby. It just made me think of how much more love we will have in our house, so much more laughing, and so much more dancing. For just a second I didn’t feel scared and overwhelmed…instead I felt the bliss of having another person to love in my family. I felt the excitement of imagining Ella and Apollo playing with their new brother/sister. I am trying so hard to hold on to that feeling and that excitement I got to feel for a second.
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I know I am going to have more “sunny” days, but for today, I am just thankful that I got to see that little ray of sunlight through the clouds.
