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I have a new focus, it’s to become comfortable. Not in my clothes or anything like that, but in my surroundings, in my body, in the moment.
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It sounds ridiculous but for as long as I can remember I don’t ever fully relax. There is always a piece of me that’s on full alert. For what you ask? Usually and earthquake or mad serial killer. I’ve somehow convinced myself that at any moment I’m going to die as a result of one of those 2 things. I blame the news, media and just my general insecurities. But really, it doesn’t matter who is to blame, it just needs to stop. I know the saying, “Worrying won’t add a minute to your life”, and I believe that to be true. However it just doesn’t seem to sink in enough to change my daily thought patterns.
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The other night I focused all of my energy on just relaxing and trusting that I am 100% fine. I felt a sense of peace that I haven’t felt for I don’t even know how long. It was pure, and it was beautiful! So now, I’m working on reminding myself throughout the day to stop expecting the worst and to just live. It’s something that I have to practice every moment, but I am working towards the day when it all comes naturally. When I don’t have to think about peace…I will be peace.
